I’ve been wondering this on and off, and I figured I might as well get around to asking:

Are other people’s imaginations shut down or impaired when they’re sick?

Mine is: I pretty much don’t have visualised fantasies at all when I’m sick, and what fantasies I do have are much fewer in number and much less vivid. I can think of possible explanations that lead to both “this is a very common experience” (maybe it’s part of the cognitive issues that come with the brain’s convalescence mode) and “this is a very rare experience” (maybe it’s my brain’s way of resolving the conflict in the instinctive How to Respond to Illness code between “get lots of rest” and “avoid getting pregnant”, forcing a loss of libido by rendering me incapable of sexual fantasies (and, as a side effect, non-sexual fantasies)).

Anyone know how common imagination impairments are when sick? Failing that, anyone have anecdotal experience about whether this happens to them?


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This cold is weirdly accelerated. The symptoms are more severe, and have rather longer periods of overlap (normally one symptom fades out as the next fades in), but overall it seems to be going by faster.

At first, this seemed like a good deal. Yeah, Day 2 in particular was pretty miserable, but on Day 3 I already felt like I’d turned the corner. It’s Day 4 now, and I feel the way I normally would around Day 6. My appetite isn’t up to par, but my body generally isn’t resisting me anymore when I try to get it to eat, and occasionally I even feel hungry. My sense of taste is still a bit distorted, but I can mostly taste things now. My normal level of executive function has more or less returned. The tiredness still feels mostly hollow, and I certainly don’t feel the way I ought to feel after getting ~4 – 5 hours of sleep the night before, but it isn’t completely hollow.

Turns out there’s an additional price I didn’t foresee, though it’s sort of mentioned in that list:

If your coughing is accelerated such that you are having 1 – 4 bouts of coughing per 2 minutes, you cannot sleep. Every time you start to even sort of settle in, another cough wakes you up. I spent three straight hours (3 – 6 AM) lying in bed, trying to find stimuli that would distract me from the urge to cough but not distract me from sleeping. (I considered taking dimenhydrinate, but given that I was already on pseudoephedrine and dextromethorphan*, I didn’t want to add another drug into the mix without having a chance to look into their interactions. Maybe tonight.)

(In the end, I don’t think anything I did worked: the coughing just sort of stopped for a while around 6 AM, enough that I was able to get another ~3 hours of sleep in.)

Given the choice of this symptom profile or the normal one, I might still go with this one, but it’s less obvious a choice than it was yesterday.

*I thought “reduces the urge to cough” meant “reduces frequency of urge to cough”, but last night’s experience was actually “reduces severity of urge to cough, such that it’s easier to ignore if you have things to take your mind off it”.


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So I’ve got a cold (at least it waited until I was done with my semester and on break), and when I spoke this morning my first thought was “dear god, I sound like the Fathers”. (to hear the bit I was quoting, go to timestamp 3:07)

I coughed a bit between that first speech and recording this, clearing some stuff out, so the impersonation isn’t quite as good.

(Neat fact: my pitch here actually sounds better than my normal voice, where “better” means “more closely approximating the way my voice sounds from the inside”.)


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dagny-hashtaggart:

theaudientvoid:

aeondeug:

lavabendinggemqueen:

writing-prompt-s:

Cthulhu, as an eldritch being, sees humans as humans see insects; which is to say, harmless but inexplicably terrifying.

#cthulhu chasing humanity around with a shoe while crying

I’m going to give Cthulhu malaria.

Cthulhu, the first true effective altruist.

Well, “Effective Altruist” and “Eldritch Abomination” do have the same abbreviations. Coincidence?


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nevermindbinarity asked: WHYYY (also the way you formatted the link was clever!)

itsbenedict:

(I’m gonna put this in drafts and post it in a couple days, once the story’s over.)

the answer to “WHYYY” is mainly “there really wasn’t any other plausible outcome”. like, if it didn’t happen this way, it would have happened some other way, because there’s no chance in hell Arc would ever have been able to do what it took to avoid it.

(even though “what it takes to avoid it” is just “not making all these complicated strings of terrible decisions”.)

(spoilers under cut)

Keep reading

(more spoilers)

Yeah, I was wondering at first why the hell anyone would believe O when they claimed to be J, since surely they’ve proven themself to be completely untrustworthy from the staff’s POV. And then I thought, it doesn’t really matter in the end. Arc could never be satisfied with the situation as it stands. They would always be determined to get their memory back, die trying, or–as it happens–both. If they didn’t die to the fungus on iteration O, they’d die to it in a future iteration, or get themself shot when they pissed off one of the people-with-guns one time too many. They really were doomed from the moment they were infected.

Although it’s not really enough to manifest over the few cycles we see, the process does progressively cordon off more of the brain over time

It doesn’t manifest? Was I reading too much into the fact that N can come up with a not just a plan, but a plan for how to hide their real plan, in the few seconds they have between seeing Orchard and having Orchard come after them, but O has quotes like this:

He turned to me. “Sorry- quick question- what’s your name?”

I froze. What did he need my name for?

[chain of reasoning cut for space]

“Hey. Your name. Can you tell me?” Gah! I wasn’t done thinking! I held up a finger for silence.

[more reasoning]

I’d paused too long. The guard was getting suspicious. “I’m just asking. This isn’t a trick or anything, just… what’s your name?”

And this:

Everything was happening too fast. I couldn’t stop and think through every implication of what they were saying- they kept saying things, without giving me time to analyze it! I couldn’t move, I couldn’t make a judgment- had 5 gotten her to say that somehow? Is that what someone who’d had their cover blown would say out loud? No, but- it explained 5’s behavior, it was plausible- but it could be a trick. HOW could it be a trick? What was Helium even saying, oh, she was saying more things now-

I mean, when I saw the bit about brain damage with each reset, I kind of figured the problem was that O thinks more slowly than N does.

*Potentially*, Arc could be cured with a specialized treatment plan and a really high-security facility, where they just lock them in with no human contact and no clues whatsoever, and hope they don’t work it out for themselves over months of time to think and theorize and potentially hit upon the right solution by chance. Maybe stick a lot of books and video games in there to distract them with? 

Is there a reason why keeping a patient continuously unconscious for six months wouldn’t work, or is it just impractical for them to actually do?

(At first I wondered if you could even avoid the need for amnesia by doing that, but I suppose even if it would theoretically work and they had enough supplies, it would be hard to ensure people are always completely unconscious and not dreaming of elephants.)


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I’m Sick

sinesalvatorem:

I probably have the cold now. Ugh. This sucks. Damn Canada with it’s inhuman temperatures and its long-as-fuck commutes that expose me to said temperature.

When I’m sick* I forget how hunger and it doesn’t even occur to me to eat food. So I just had breakfast at quarter to four. Why am I so non-functional argh.

(*Ever since I had the Evil Mosquito Illness. Before that, my response to illness was to eat more. This change is probably part of the reason why I still haven’t put back on all the weight I lost to that disease. It has been almost two year and I’ve only regained ten pounds fuck.)

I got sick all the time when I was new to Canada too. I think it’s because the microbial milieu is different here than back home, with a different set of commonly-encountered cold variants. You have to catch up.

(also, :( )


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Almost No One is Evil; Almost Everything is Broken | 500 Million, But Not a Single One More

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ilzolende:

jaiwithani:

We will never know their names.

The first victim could not have been recorded, for there was no written language to record it. They were someone’s daughter, or son, and someone’s friend, and they were loved by those around them. And they were in pain, covered in rashes, confused, scared, not knowing why this was happening to them or what they could do about it – victim of a mad, inhuman god. There was nothing to be done – humanity was not strong enough, not aware enough, not knowledgeable enough, to fight back against a monster that could not be seen.

It was in Ancient Egypt, where it attacked slave and pharaoh alike. In Rome, it effortlessly decimated armies. It killed in Syria. It killed in Moscow.  In India, five million dead. It killed a thousand Europeans every day in the 18th century. It killed more than fifty million Native Americans. From the Peloponnesian War to the Civil War, it slew more soldiers and civilians than any weapon, any soldier, any army (Not that this stopped the most foolish and empty souls from attempting to harness the demon as a weapon against their enemies).

Cultures grew and faltered, and it remained. Empires rose and fell, and it thrived. Ideologies waxed and waned, but it did not care. Kill. Maim. Spread. An ancient, mad god, hidden from view, that could not be fought, could not be confronted, could not even be comprehended. Not the only one of its kind, but the most devastating.

For a long time, there was no hope – only the bitter, hollow endurance of survivors.

In China, in the 10th century, humanity began to fight back.

It was observed that survivors of the mad god’s curse would never be touched again: they had taken a portion of that power into themselves, and were so protected from it. Not only that, but this power could be shared by consuming a remnant of the wounds. There was a price, for you could not take the god’s power without first defeating it – but a smaller battle, on humanity’s terms. By the 16th century, the technique spread, to India, across Asia, the Ottoman Empire and, in the 18th century, Europe. In 1796, a more powerful technique was discovered by Edward Jenner.

An idea began to take hold: Perhaps the ancient god could be killed.

A whisper became a voice; a voice became a call; a call became a battle cry, sweeping across villages, cities, nations. Humanity began to cooperate, spreading the protective power across the globe, dispatching masters of the craft to protect whole populations. People who had once been sworn enemies joined in common cause for this one battle. Governments mandated that all citizens protect themselves, for giving the ancient enemy a single life would put millions in danger.

And, inch by inch, humanity drove its enemy back. Fewer friends wept; Fewer neighbors were crippled; Fewer parents had to bury their children.

At the dawn of the 20th century, for the first time, humanity banished the enemy from entire regions of the world. Humanity faltered many times in its efforts, but there individuals who never gave up, who fought for the dream of a world where no child or loved one would ever fear the demon ever again. Viktor Zhdanov, who called for humanity to unite in a final push against the demon; The great tactician Karel Raška, who conceived of a strategy to annihilate the enemy; Donald Henderson, who led the efforts of those final days.

The enemy grew weaker. Millions became thousands, thousands became dozens. And then, when the enemy did strike, scores of humans came forth to defy it, protecting all those whom it might endanger.

The enemy’s last attack in the wild was on Ali Maow Maalin, in 1977. For months afterwards, dedicated humans swept the surrounding area, seeking out any last, desperate hiding place where the enemy might yet remain.

They found none.

35 years ago, on December 9th, 1979, humanity declared victory.

This one evil, the horror from beyond memory, the monster that took 500 million people from this world – was destroyed.

You are a member of the species that did that. Never forget what we are capable of, when we band together and declare battle on what is broken in the world.

Happy Smallpox Eradication Day.

I handed out, like, 15 copies of this essay today!


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Anonymous asked: Are you good as far as having drugs to make having the flu not suck so bad?

sinesalvatorem:

What type of drugs? Where can I get them? Will they cost more than $25? I’ve never bought flu medication back home. We use ~traditional herbs~ and suffering it out, because that’s the cheapest thing for it.

(will use chemical names because over-the-counter medicine brand names are ever-changing, often overly broad, and generally confusing)

(I spent long enough composing this that I’ve quite possibly been ninja’d, but hopefully this helps anyway.)

Relevant contents of my family’s basic medicine stock, available at any ordinary pharmacy (Pharmasave, Shoppers Drug Mart, stuff like that, also most grocery stores):

Pseudoephedrine: de-clogs stuffy noses. I don’t think it does anything for runny noses, or at least it didn’t seem to during my recent cold. While not particularly psychoactive itself (apparently it can be a stimulant, but not at the doses you’d be taking), is an ingredient in making meth, so you will likely be required to show ID and be forbidden from buying quantities that look suspiciously industrial. IME, wears off after 3 – 4 hours, but can only be taken every 6 (although you’re officially allowed to take another dose after only 4 as long as you don’t do it too often; see box for details). Plan your off times accordingly.

(Phenylephrine: …actually, let me just quote Wikipedia here. “Phenylephrine is marketed as an alternative for the decongestant pseudoephedrine, though clinical studies show phenylephrine to be no more effective than placebo.“ You might be tempted by it because it’s less restricted than pseudoephedrine, but don’t bother. If you have trouble obtaining pseudoephedrine, just go without.)

Dextromethorphan: reduces cough frequency, though not always to nothing. Taken twice a day, and also cannot be relied upon to actually last the whole time.

Guaifenesin: if you are having the kind of cough where you can feel there’s phlegm clogging your lungs but the cough’s not clearing it out, turns your coughing into the kind of cough that does clear it out. Kind of gross while the “productive” cough is going on, but you can breathe better afterward.

Dimenhydrinate: anti-nauseant, in case you need that sort of thing at the moment. Is also a sedative, so don’t take it if you want to be awake. Has a similar name to anti-allergy (and also sedative) diphenhydramine because it’s a similar chemical: you might be able to use them interchangeably in a pinch, but probably better to keep separate stocks of them if possible. Definitely don’t take them both at once, though. (Mind you, it’s general good policy to never take any sedative with another sedative, or any stimulant (including pseudoephedrine) with another stimulant.)

(With flus you probably don’t need an anti-diarrheal, but for future reference that’s loperamide. Half a pill renders you unable to poop for 24 – 36 hours. I recommend against taking a whole pill.)

The four main OTC pain relievers are ibuprofen, aspirin, acetaminophen, and naproxen. I generally use ibuprofen, but I’m not sure the difference is that important if you don’t have any medical issues forbidding one or another. (Oh, although, ibuprofen is nearly tasteless, so if you have trouble swallowing the pill, you can just chew it and it won’t be horrible.)

I don’t normally bother with topical anesthetic for sore throats (you open your mouth, aim the spray bottle at the back of your throat and press the button) because I find the feeling of numbness it replaces the pain with to be just as bad, but Mom uses phenol spray.

Note: all of these are sold in quantities too big for one cold suffered by one person. Rather than buying your own supply and having it expire before you can use it all, you may want to consider buying partial containers off of classmates. Possibly. Don’t blame me if something goes wrong with this plan.


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Stop the clock. Two years, ten months between colds.

It was a good run. I would have preferred it to last a couple more days so I could get back from vacation first, but still.

(And hey, I managed to stay well for an additional week after Dad and Brother got sick. I looked ridiculous wearing a surgical mask on the airplane–I’m not in a culture where it’s standard–but it was probably a good move.)


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ilzolende:

somervta:

ilzolende:

somervta:

  • There are Some Things Money Can’t Buy. Especially If You Abolish All Private Property.
  • From each according to their ability, to each according to his need. For everything else, there’s #Marxcard.
  • I don’t always seize the means of production from the bourgeoisie, but when I do, I prefer the Marx MasterCard.
  • A spectre is haunting Europe – the spectre of cash back and low, low interest rates. #marxcard
  • The Marx Card – Because Credit is the Opiate of the Masses.
  • The Karl Marx MasterCard – When You’re Short of Kapital
  • Reach For it when you get in the red

Is this your original work? It is hilarious, and the sort of thing I would expect to see lots of notes on.

(The times when I actually think “needs more notes” are always for joke posts.)

No! The Karl Marx Mastercard is a real thing! The first article I read about it in mentioned that it needed a tagline. I come up with a few of the obvious ones on my own before looking, but they’re all on twitter several times over.

Wait, what? They actually made a credit card with Marx on it?

What’s the ratio between P(credit card with Marx) and P(My perceptions are false|I’m sick and have had some related cognitive difficulties already)?

Bookmark this thread and come back to it when you’re feeling better. If it’s still there, news links and all, you’ll know it wasn’t a fever dream.


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