17. Who would be your ideal partner?
My first reaction is “????“ and my second is “for starters, someone I’m not scared of”. Over the past year or so, I’ve been learning that perhaps this is not as exacting a standard as I once thought.
36. Favorite clean word?
Meridian. It has such a nice flow to it.
42. Are you a good judge of character?
My gut is a paranoid wreck. Intellectually, I don’t know.
63. Biggest Fear?
Hmm. I’m not sure. *digs through brain* Well, I don’t think I would call that the biggest fear, and lately it’s turned out that that one wasn’t quite a fear per se at all…
Memory of seven-year-old self: *gives me a Look*
…oh, of course, you’re right. It could never have been anything else.
Death, specifically my own.
(You can tell how good I’ve gotten at suppressing it by the first paragraph of this response. Even now, as I type this, I am careful not to think too hard about what I’m saying. It is a hard-won skill, honed through sheer self-preserving necessity for a decade and a half, and it is still best to avoid straining the limits when possible.)
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